The boys...

I'm really starting to get a feel for that phrase - 'the boys...', now that I'm a mom to not only one, but two little boys!

Before my journey into motherhood started, I never gave much thought to whether I wanted boys, girls or both... It never really mattered to me. I truly just wanted healthy children, in whatever form they decided to arrive!

I must admit though, when I found out that our second (and final) baby was also a boy, I did feel a little emotional. I realised that I wouldn't have a little girl, I wouldn't have all the pink stuff - because let's face it, girls clothes are so much cuter than boys! But also, I wasn't going to teach a little girl about life as a woman, help plan her wedding day or give her advice when her first child arrives. None of that... nope.

So, somewhere deep inside, I was a little disappointed that I would not become a mom to a little girl, but I was at the same time exceptionally excited that Malakai would have a brother, someone he could become great friends with.

Once again though, I must admit, I also gave little Harlan a job before he even popped out of my stomach, never mind reached adolescence - Protect Malakai, fight for him, watch over him, love him - always.

Isn't it just bizarre how our minds work? Here I've given Harlan a job before he's even able to speak or walk - willing him to be Malakai's protector and champion, never allowing a bad thing to happen to him.

I think Harlan is up for the job though - the lungs he has on him! Harlan cries with such a force when he's unhappy... I had to laugh when my mother-in-law was convinced he was in excruciating pain, no - I said with experience - no, he's just very very vocal, and quite dramatic with his crying... And he is... believe me!

So, they are my boys, both so different, both so amazing. I dream that one day they will be inseparable. I dream that as much as I want Harlan to protect and guide Malakai, that it is not a one-way-street, and that Malakai will be giving back to his brother in his way - creating a perfectly reciprocal brotherly love.

I know that I'll probably never have a little girl - but my boys are enough thank you. They are just what I needed and they are just perfect for each other.