You are my son

Dearest Malakai,

Today I was going to write a whole long letter about people's thoughts on Down Syndrome and how they shouldn't think this, or say that, or believe whatever! Blah Blah! People are going to believe what they believe until they no longer do... simple.

So! Instead of trying to tell other people what they should think, I thought I'd tell you what I absolutely adore about YOU!

I love it when I wake up in the morning because of the little 'hyperventilating' sounds you are making and I find you, looking up at me, one little leg stuck through the bars of the cot, smiling and sucking your hands!

I love it when I bring you into the bed with me and feed you - your ability to breastfeed being something that babies with Down Syndrome 'shouldn't' be able to do... well... they didn't get you the memo!

I love it when I walk into lounge and you (sitting in your reclining chair) give me the widest smile, your eyes like little half-moons, your nose slightly crinkled up...

I love it when I pick you up and you hold me around my neck - you little hands grasping tightly and your little baby-breath warming my neck.

I love it when you sit on my lap, concentrating on holding your head up, using your little neck to support your head, being so amazingly cute!

I love it when I put you to sleep and you make little moaning sounds... into the crook of my arm...

I love it when I get to kiss your tummy, so soft it seems it is made from pure innocence...

I love it when you lie asleep, tired from a busy day... snoring ever so softly... And then when you wake up and smile at me like I've just caught you doing something naughty!

I love it when you learn something new... it is amazing to see the world through your eyes.

I love seeing you through your daddy's eyes - you have created a new man, a father, a nurturer, a provider, a protector, a giver, a beautiful man.

I love the mother you have brought out of me...

You are all my Reasons for Being,

Love,

Mom