As my baby gets ready to turn one...

So, we find ourselves on the eve of the day you were born my baby boy.

I am filled with so much – Love, Thoughts, Memories, Hopes, Pride, Excitement...

I have loved every minute of every day since your arrival, you continue to amaze and inspire me with your joy, smiles, love and determination.

What I wish I had known, the day you were born, the day we ‘found out’, the day that was filled with so many tears and heavy-heavy sadness... what I wish I had known then was that I had no reason to cry, no reason to be sad or fearful, because you would be ok. No. More than ok! You would fill our lives with wonder and joy and love and smiles.

Malakai you have taught me so much already – I now know that Perfection comes in many shapes and forms. I now know that Acceptance has nothing to do with ‘settling’ and everything to do with celebration of our lives together. I now know that no book, doctor, diagnosis or blood test can tell me who you are – only you can... in your time... in your way. I now know that little boys with naughty smiles can renew my soul... and fill my heart! I now know that I’ll be ok, not in the least because you’ve shown me that it’s all going to be ok.

This year has been an amazing journey. Your dad loves you so much, you brighten his days and make him so proud. He, like everyone else, thinks you’re just a superstar in every way. Your grandparents, aunts, uncles and cousins adore you too. You have a special place in their hearts and the hearts of all our friends. I don’t think we could’ve imagined, the day you were born, what an impact you would make on everyone you meet.

My angel, as we draw your first year to a close, sealed with starry-eyed love, I want to think of your next year. I want to wish, imagine and project my ideas of what’s going to happen. But I am quickly reminded of the single biggest lesson you have ever taught me – stay here. Right here. This moment is our only promise, our only gift, the only place where we can truly make a difference.

So, bring on 366 days my baby... and then 367... One day at a time. Celebrating. Loving. Being. Becoming. One beautiful moment at a time.

Our Year in Pictures

*In my tummy*

*First Breath*

*1 day old*

*2 weeks old*

*1 month old*

*2 months old*

*3 months old*

*4 months old*

*5 months old*


*6 months old*

*7 months old*

*8 months old*

*9 months old*

*10 months old*

*11 months old*

*Almost 1!*