And the Journey Begins!

I thought it would be apt to start this Love Story with the first letter that I wrote to my baby boy - on the day that the doctors confirmed he had Down Syndrome (although he was born on 08/08/08, we did not know for certain that he had Down Syndrome until 11/08/08).

Today was a difficult day my angel boy. Today we found out, without a doubt, that you are a Down Syndrome baby. Now, you may ask "What's that mom?" and I can only tell the little I know about it so far. It is a genetic thing that happens sometimes with babies from all races, countries and backgrounds, and it is basically an extra chromosome that makes you part of many little babies that are born like this.
"So?" you ask (quite rightly!)... exactly, my angel!
Just like there are many people with the 'normal' amount of chromosomes that are all unique and special, you too will be unique and special in your own way!
So, even if I could tell you more than this now (which I can't because I am still learning), I do know that the Medical & Scientific information cannot tell me who you are going to be and how you (and your special extra chromosome) are going to grow and be the perfect child that you are!
"So why the difficult day then mommy?" I hear you ask...
Well, sometimes (most times actually), grown ups believe that there is such a thing as 'not perfect'. We believe things should look, perform and 'be' a certain way and when they aren't, we become scared and call this 'not perfect'. All this is actually a silly story we tell ourselves to scare ourselves! So, mommy and daddy were not expecting our perfect baby boy to have an extra chromosome, and when we found out we got scared of what we didn't know.
"And?"
Well, the simple answer is that we love you madly! I look at you (all 4 days old worth!) and my heart crumbles! I love you more that I can describe in words, but if I had to try, then it's like the sun breaking out after a Highveld Afternoon Thundershower - brilliant, new, fresh, magical, mystical, beautiful... You are me, you are your dad, and you are you! Forever will we be in you ad therefore a part of us exists outside ourselves... within you Malakai!
Today's 'difficult-ness' has (like the sun after a thunderstorm) washed away our fears. We can now focus on the Brilliant, New, Fresh, Magical, Beautiful Malakai!
My precious boy, I love you so much I want to pop!
Here's to a Magical Journey together!

You are all my Reasons for Being.
Love,
Mom